I don't dare ask what next...

My day started off a bit strange, I was sound asleep, and sort of waking state I guess cause I heard the Air Conditioner sort of do an odd hummm..and the was shut off. I figured okay maybe we blew a fuse. Turns out the power was out, which is not a big deal only it was 8:30am and it was stifling hot in our apartment already.

So I decided okay well let me just go get a shower and stuff, I had an eye doctor appointment this morning anyway. All is working again the power came back on none to soon, so I could make a smoothie for breakfast. Paul decided he wanted to come with me to the eye appointment. Well just before that we had a confrontation about his clutter, and yesterday was his last day at work no more excuses time to start helping out here, by doing his part in packing and purging. He reluctantly pulled thing from the closet, pants with the crotch missing and would look them over, hesitate then look at me..and then toss. I left him to this task, while I was doing my own thing.

We are now walking to my appointment and he is dragging his heals, I finally said to him "you don't have to come with me, I am not getting anything done out of the ordinary eye exam." He mumbled something and then things just blew from there, and so did the rest of my day. Finally we just decided he should go off on his own, I would go off on my own, meet up later. Fine and dandy.

I get further down the street and can't find the building I need for the eye doctor. Finally find it, and they tell me they can't find my insurance coverage. Well I quit work last week but was told my benefits would still be good until the end of the month. I only went so I could get new contacts, and make sure all was well with my eyes since it had been like 3 years since they were last checked. I explain to the girl that I just quit but it should still be covered I may just have to mail my claim in instead. For some reason she felt this was a big deal, the reality was I was being inconvienienieced but at this point really didn't care. I had a feeling that would be the case and came prepared.

Another woman comes out to take me in the exam room for some preliminary eye tests. The Pressure test and all that jazz. I took my specs off, and went through that whole process. I got to put my glasses back on and the some how, I have no idea how, broke completly in half! I looked in my hands thinking these aren't my glasses? Yup, they were..busted..couldn't tell you what happened. Maybe I was that angry I was gripping them tighter than I thought. The girl was stunned. All I heard was the ringing of Cash registers and money leaving my account in that moment.So here I am sporting a monocle. Finally get to the eye exam itself. The Doctor was also shocked at that state of my glasses. "Well I guess we will wait till the end to test your sight with that percription." Thankfully she gave me a set of contacts to wear home. In the meantime Paul had text messaged me to apologize and wanted to meet up. I texted him back telling him what just happened.

The kicker of it all, my eyes hadn't really changed at all..so I wouldn't have needed new glasses but the sons of bitches broke in the office! So of course they give you the hard sell about what kind of lenses I need cause my percription is so bad. I have had glasses since I was 10 years old..I know what I need. I told the girl as politely as I could that I didn't want all the fru, fru, just the glasses and contacts. Since we are moving on Thursday there is a push to get new ones. No one bothered to help me pick out new one which is weird usually there is someone there who shows you frames that suit your face. Paul was not waiting for me in the office. I asked him to help me find some frames, he kept hounding me, saying " Well I don't understand how did they break?"

I don't know;

"Well how long to get your contacts in?"

I didn't ask that yet. As I am trying to find something...he is hymming and hawing in my ear..'

"I told you to do this earlier Shannon but no you waited to long"

Them were fightin words to me...

"Do you REALLY want to have this conversation here right now?"

The truth was I called a few places and they were all booked to August, well we wouldn't be here, and this place was the earliest appointment I could get.

"Why doesn't your insurance work?"

"I don't know"..gritting my teeth, cause I couldn't really worry about that right now..either way I needed new glasses..

finally I walked away, paid for my contacts and exam out of pocket. I have to say it was the most expensive eye exam I ever had in my life. $120.00! I could have gone to lens crafters for $50!!!!!!! But no it wasn't in my network..this is B.S.!!!!!

I thanked the lady at the desk when she told my final amount with Paul pacing behind me. I walked out and that was it. I fell apart..I was so angry, at him for acting like I sat there and snapped my glasses in half on purpose so I could shell out another 600.00 for new ones. For my work screwing up my insurance, myself for not handling this situation better...

I never did find a new pair of glasses yet. I am going to wait it out, as long as I can, since they eye doctor told me that insurance doesn't always cover lenses unless they are done in the manufactuer, and I can't wait that long. So I am going to try and duct tape my together for around the house..lol..yeah..I either laugh or cry at this point...

Since this whole move thing started, things have been breaking down on us left right and center. I am not sure if this is a sign of new beginnings or just dumb luck! I am trying to think positively..First the T.V. thing, then our phone is acting up so we had to get a new phone, now my glasses..I just don't know..I don't dare utter the words...What next..cause I don't think I can handle the answer...